• Manifesting My Person

    Hi, Lily here once again with a random idea. I was talking to a tarot card reader a couple of weeks ago, and we got to talking about relationships. Not too surprising, given it was a tarot reading—lol. My biggest issue has been finding someone. Finding that person who fits…

  • The Trigger

    I don’t remember much of what happened to me. I have bits and pieces that flow through my mind. Strong emotions and fears that break through on occasion. Memories long buried, buried so deep it almost feels like they never happened. I know they happened though, even if I wish…

  • On Touch, Trauma, and Wanting to Be Held

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    Hello All!!! I hope everyone is taking care of themselves! Let’s talk about touch, human touch that is. So what kind of touch am I talking about? Let’s list out various forms, from the most basic to the more intimate: handshakes, hugs, dental exams, physicals, hand-holding, general non-sexual touching, kissing,…

  • Passing Thoughts

    Hello! I know it’s been a min since I last posted something. Bad Lily. lol I was sitting in bed, unable to fall asleep, and felt like writing. So let’s write some stuff. I have been thinking about passing lately. For those who do not know, for us trans folks,…

  • Facing the Shadows: A Journey Through Healing

    Let’s talk. I legitimately don’t know what to write. I feel like there’s something I need to get down, yet I can’t quite find the feeling. So this post may be a bit unhinged. A few months ago, I was doing really well. I was happy, thriving, and learning. I…

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    Navigating Attraction and the Unknown

    Hello, hello! Alright, so today, I want to talk about sexual preference. This has been on my mind a lot lately, and my therapist even mentioned that maybe I’m entering my dating phase—lol. To start with, I have zero experience. Like, truly zero. I’ve only ever been on two dates…

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    The Explorer’s Doorway

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    Once upon a time, there was a little girl named Mary. Mary was a sweet girl, always laughing and smiling. No matter the person, place, or situation, she was always smiling. Mary just turned six years old today and was excitedly awaiting the birthday party her mother was preparing. She…

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    Hello, hello! Today, I am jumping into part 2 of my name change process here in El Paso County. You can find part 1 here. I will say, this will be shorter than the first post, but I wanted to make sure to come back and update you. My name…

  • Who I Am: A Personal Reflection

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    Hello wonderful people!!! I hope you are doing well. 😊 I have been putting off writing this post for a while now. As you can tell from the title, this post is about who I am. The hardest thing to write about I think. I am not going to post…

  • Learning to Girl

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    Hello fellow peeps! 👋 So, how does one, girl? OMG, I wish I knew!!! 😅 Look, I have been transitioning for about 9 months or so. I have no girlfriends or any family in the area, so I’m a lonely trans girl. That’s fine, but it does mean I have…

  • Dear Santa

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    Hi Santa, its Lily. Not that you don’t already know who I am. My name may have changed on your list, but I am the same kid you have always known. I am writing you tonight with my Christmas wish. I have been a good girl this year. I’ve grown…

  • El Paso County Name Change Process for Trans Individuals

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    Hello Hello, I hope you’re doing good out there. My name is Lily. Today I am going to talk about my name change journey in Colorado Springs, El Paso County Colorado. To start off with, most of my information before starting came from the Name Change Project. They have instructions…

  • Taking the Leap: Changing My Name and Coming Out

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    I am coming up to a scary moment. Exciting, but a little scary. I recently started my name change journey. I needed to get a couple of background checks done before I can start the paperwork to change my name. One was local and the other was an FBI check.…

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    Navigating Family Acceptance as a Trans Person

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    Hello, I hope you have been good in these uncertain times. Speaking of uncertain times. I have recently been going though the early stages of coming out to my family. My parents already know I am trans, and now my brother and sister know. I also told my long running…

  • Finding Light in Dark Times: A Trans Perspective on Community

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    Hello you, I hope you are doing well in these trying times. For those unaware, these have been difficult times in America for the trans and LGBTQIA+ community. Recently, he who must not be named was voted in as president of the United States. It’s not just that he was…

  • Finding Happiness in Life’s Adventures

    I am sitting here on Halloween, looking out my window waiting for any trick or treaters. I have sheer curtains that are purple. It gives a nice atmosphere looking out toward the street, cars going by one after another. I don’t know if I will get any trick or treaters…

  • Trauma Response

    Hello all, A few weeks ago, I wrote this to help myself process and understand a trauma response I experienced recently. Trigger Warning: While I don’t directly discuss my trauma, I do explore the emotions and feelings associated with it. When I was young — honestly, too young — I…

  • Let Me Introduce Myself!

    Hello everyone, my name is Lily Lulonut! It’s wonderful to meet you! I haven’t even finished setting up this blog, and I’ve already received some likes and a comment—I really appreciate it. This is my first official post, aside from the test one. I wanted to say hi and properly…

I’m Lily Lulonut

I’m a writer, and this is my blog. I created this space to share my writings on all sorts of subjects: creative writing, journals, personal essays, reviews, witchy stuff, kink, sex, and anything else I come up with. A little bit of everything. I’ve also had this big story stuck in my head for years, and I’d love to start exploring it here.


I’m a trans woman (she/her) who’s been transitioning for a couple years. Transition brought me back to writing after years away from it. I’m a witch who’s always learning more, a Lilithian and worshiper of Lilith. I tend toward left-hand path and darker magick, and I believe magick is capable of anything. The impossible made possible. Beyond the witchy stuff, I’m also a big old nerd. I play D&D, love fantasy books, and I’m really into anime, especially isekai. I’m an aspiring goth living in Colorado Springs, finally getting to dress the way I always wanted to.


I hope you enjoy my blog, and feel free to reach out. Stay safe, y’all!